LIFETIMES – BELFAST  1982

by

SEAMUS  ROBINSON   © 1982

 

 

Eight a.m. and Sandy sits

Relaxed, and lights a “feg” …

Lets his stomach take its time

Digesting breakfast egg ;

Scans the paper while his ears

Absorb the early news …

“Body found” the wireless says ,

He bends to lace his shoes –

“Another one again last night,”

He tells his wife as she lifts a plate ;

She shrugs a sigh and takes his cup –

“Smarten up – you’re going to be late.”

He yawns and rises from the chair ,

And dons his policeman’s coat …

“See you, Love,” he calls from the door ,

While unsaid words clog in his throat .

Outside, the sun shines through the trees ,

Alive with warbled whistling codes …

In the car, he turns the key ,

And all the world … explodes .

 

           

 Four p.m. and young Anne runs

To Riley’s corner-shop …

She joins the queue while Riley talks –

“They’ve killed another cop ,

Got him as he left the house –

Blew the car sky-high.”

“He’ll shoot no more,” a woman says ,

“What price your Shepherd’s Pie?”

“And yet and all,” another speaks –

“He still was someone’s son ,

Just like that lad the Orangies killed

Last night and called it fun.”

The youngster waits until her turn ,

Then buys a chocolate bar –

At eight years old there’s better things

Than blowing-up a car …

Homewards in the shining sun ,

Then soldiers running by –

And sudden banging plastic death

Comes crashing through her eye .

 

           

 Ten p.m. and Sean awakes

To consciousness again …

He sucks a breath through broken lips

And shudders with the pain –

Black blinding pain that spikes throughout

The twitching residue ,

That was his body once –

God – let it not be true .

He tries to clear his eyeless slits

With a useless, handless stump ,

But the brain has lost the power to rule

His shapeless body-lump .

“The Fenian pig is still alive,”

He hears the “Butcher” say –

“I told you that we’d need to rip

The bloody throat away.”

“O my God I am heartily … “

Sean tries to say the prayer –

As again the “Butcher’s” knife descends ,

And leaves him throatless there .

 

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